Got to know more about myself today. Kinda disappointing. Sometimes knowing too much is not a good thing and i knew too much today. false hopes and unrealistic expectation was the main cause of it.
went for the check up, was in a blur and confused state , staring hard for clues while teh 2 doctors are communicating with chim words which seems not so english to me. lol at least i kinda figure out that i am rare to them and the world.Saw the CT scan. LOL damn cool but i dun understand a single part of it, it can zoom in and out but no colour. that the result of exposing myself to 2 mth of background radiation.
sent me for another test as the previous test was way too perfect for my condition. teh same old waiting procedures.
was "counselled" regards to my options and some recommendation , given 3 mths to consider. requested to take photo. felt like monkey from mandai zoo. a bit insulted and sad after the so called counselling. requested to stay for some mini exhibition. a bunch of 5 doctors came and took a look , some on site lecturing by this doc, and live demo. well, for the sake of science and for future generation. first time in my life taking photo in a not so good feel.
quite glad i am experiencing all this and thank my psychological defence mechanism for the mature handling of emotions. LOL Mr Ng will be damn happy to see that i am applying his psycho in my life. LOL
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